Retreat From Certainty

by John Christian

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Recorded May 2016. The songs contained here are deep and thoughtful and they include topics like strife, love, pain and bliss.

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released May 29, 2016

John Christian - acoustic guitar, electric guitar, bass, piano, organ, Wurlitzer electric piano, Oberheim OBX, Arp Odyssey, Roland TR 808, harmonica, metal, dhantal, tabla, bayan, conga, timbale, bongos, percussion, glockenspiel, zither, drums, sound effects, vocals.

Steve Brown - bass on "In The Hatchery" and "Caligula Dies"

Theodore - barking on "Caligula Dies"

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Track Name: In The Hatchery
In the corner of the classroom
In the big world join the butchery
In the hollow stir up the fire
Remember your life in the hatchery

In your exile under the clouds you
Reject the morals of the family
And in your mind you turn back the clock and
Enjoy the good life in the hatchery

In the order of disorder
They regulate entangled uniformity
And in the backwoods way of thinking
Move ever closer to the hatchery
Track Name: Floating
I look to the sun
And when I do it turns my way
But I’m still on the run
And when I stop all will fade away

I look into the night
From the murky dusk to the glowing dawn
And when I awake
I realize the sky’s not gone

I look to the sun
And when I do it turns my way
But I’m still on the run
And when I stop all will fade away
And when I stop all will fade away
And when I stop all will fade away
And when I stop all will fade away

And when I stop……………
Track Name: Come To Me
A thousand angry bombs they fall
Upon a thousand foreign shores
A thousand bunkered generals plot
The gravestones of a thousand more

Come to me my darling one
We'll build our castle in the sun
By the shade of the maple tree
I know one day that you will come to me

One hundred men do barely sleep
They march through paddies six feet deep
An unknown schedule to keep
As death claims all around their feet

Come to me my lovely one
Leave not what's been left undone
By the willows near the sea
That day is soon that you will come to me

Ten soldiers walk a jungle track
One hundred pounds upon their back
Their eyes show more than they can tell
They lived their lives on earth in hell

Come to me my only one
The time is near; it has begun
By the way you look at me
You're telling that you will come to me

O lonely mother cries in vain
Another soul expires in pain
A single soldier cries to sleep
And prays the Lord his soul to keep

Come to me my lonely one
And we'll find pleasure in the sunday
By this winding road we'll see
One day you will come to me

Come to me my darling one
We'll build our castle in the sun
By the shade of that maple tree
I know one day that you will come to me
Track Name: Oceans In My Mind
There are oceans in my mind
Seas of thought come ride my waters
Sail on my waves
Fish deep out of my depths
They are not infinite
But to know me will take a lifetime

I have a lifetime
Track Name: Reinforcements Are Never All That Strong
Just when you gaze into the far behind
All the pain comes raging through
Lingering around like a broken cloud
The urge is then to start anew
But imagine you are on a silent sea
The sky is blue; the air is calm
When waves of happiness swell inside of you
The raft of pretence is all gone

Though you’re fighting it
There’s no hiding it
These memories are following you home
You call for help but you
Realize that the reinforcements are never all that strong

Now awakened you feel that you must take in
The information to your mind
But there’s a blockage that stops it from sinking in
And you begin to be unkind
So consider love as all that has to be
It’s really simple if you try
Strip away the layers and so you will be real
Then you’ll know you never die

As you hurry back to where the truth is now
This is all you’ll ever need
Capturing the feeling that you are alive
And no prerequisite to bleed
In the conscious mind illusion has its fall
Sets the witness in the clear
Then you see your life and all that you are
Or at least that’s what I hear
Track Name: Misery
I would do anything not to be this way
Take you for a ride in the month of May
Take you by the hand through the holy land
For a thousand years wipe away your tears
I would say anything to be on your side
Then you can never tell when hero’s in hell
So prepare to see the chosen destiny
A lock without a key – this is misery

I can’t no longer wait; want to no longer hate
In the left behind I am in my mind
Now you realize you are in disguise
Hope the lesson learned teach us all how to burn
In the month of June beneath the stormy moon
The secret’s then revealed high upon the hill
There for all to see what is meant to be
A ship without a sea – this is misery

You find a way on in
You take it while you can
Following a ‘why’
You walk the sky
Then you set aside
The what you look inside
It’s all the factory – this is misery

I would do anything not to be this way
Trip you for a ride in the month of May
Drag you by the hand through the promise land
For a million years reduce you to tears
I would say anything to see the other side
And you can always tell when you’re in hell
As we prepare to see our only destiny
A cold cup of tea – this is misery
Track Name: Take Five Stay Alive
What am I here for?
Imagine that it's come to this
What are you here for?
Prophesying your last kiss
How did it get to be so cold?
How did it get to be so cold?
How did it get to be so mixed up....again?

What's the use of growing old?
Giving in to each own story told
You can take the show so far in your mind
Live out each sentence in perfect rhyme
How did it get this far?
How did it get this far?
I can't keep living on this line
Must be a simpler way of killing time
How does it feel to be so secure?
And living blind to social cures
So secure in prime and sit in your favourite thought

Take Five Stay Alive
I can't dream much anymore

How did it get to be this way?
How did it get to be this way?
How did it get to be this way?
I'm so alone

How did it get to be this way?
How did it get to be this way?
How did it get to be this way?
You can ask but they never will answer you
They refuse to know you
They abuse you

Staying alive for a hundred years
You're staying alive for a thousand years
Staying alive for one million years
Track Name: Caligula Dies
Naked beauty befuddled mine sight I’m awakened
Common interrupted solitude lost in his face
Disfigured and demented languished by the silence
All relations are recalled; dependent on death
What virtue is this when it is emulsified by pity
After the madness Caligula dies

Leaving behind, tired, one hand is clapping
Ageless are the marks on the wall; is this creation?
Founded on sin which this empire is built on
Stops at nothing for without has become within
Gluttonous whore, inbred, cast to the demons
After the madness Caligula dies
Track Name: Retreat From Certainty
The throb of the engine dies
The man leans over the rail
The cabin carries no lamp
The black negation of life
Is that a flicker of light?
A pale apparition of late
Flying out of the dark
And echoed by a virgin flow

The throb of the engine swells
The man falls into the cloud
The vessel begins to move
Into a glowing magic sea
Then pass straight through the wave
A passage of showering sparks
In a blaze of the glimmering sea
Fled the man from certainty
Track Name: This Lesser Light
The most familiar object in the night sky
Revealing shades of a brighter light that the sun hides
Moving in and out as if it were a tide
This lesser light contemplative passion
Will it kiss again forlorn and forgotten
Unable to imagine with a dark eye

A source of Aurora throwing stones to hasten time
A pale Nocturne in dark arenas frowns and smiles
The greater rule the day the lesser rules the night
This lesser light contemplative passion
Will it kiss again forlorn and forgotten
Unable to imagine with a dark eye

The lone path is sweeping through the night sky
Because the law is stoking fear should we all die – remember that
The greater rule the day the lesser rules the night
This lesser light contemplative passion
Will it kiss again forlorn and forgotten
Unable to imagine with a dark eye